Again and Again, It’s Been Long
There are moments in my life that I ask myself how I get through all of these, but I get through them anyway.
At times, I do sit and wonder if it’s going to be much worse as life goes on and I have many more responsibilities in life.
But like they say, women are natural multi-taskers, although some are definitely better than others.
The wedding preparations are stressing me out. For a person who is an unrealistic perfectionist (not that I could help it, though I am aware of it), things just get alot more difficult.
I have had nightmares of my wedding being held in some nondescript diner looking place where 2 people sit in a booth and some other weird things happening. Not fun being in that dream because I remember feeling aghast at the idea of getting married like that.
One thing I have to be thankful about is that the stress comes solely from myself. Thankfully, I do not need to strave myself to death for things that I want or fight tooth and nail with Robert to make sure I get what I like.
I haven’t even used the crying card yet.
That being said, I really should have cried when we picked out our wedding rings.
Other than the ring and the fact that I promised to wear a more bridal looking gown, it’s largely been exactly how I had wanted.
The only thing I have given up is the customised wedding cards but that I can live with (or at least I try not to browse wedding cards online).
Did I already say I feel blessed?
I do, so I don’t know what I am stressing about.
Talking about that, I need to call a vendor soon, I am jittery that she has not replied to my mail!
